God Loves Me?
Abandonment — Part 1
Hi I am a licensed minister that helps our Veterans, family, friends and individuals understand PTSD and TBI. As well have written other Christian related books for them and the general public.
10 Ways to Recognize Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
From my book: Live Now! Continue the Fight! https://www.createspace.com/5545873
After a loss, it is normal to go through a natural grieving process. Sometimes, however, after a tragedy, such as a sudden traumatic event(s), feelings of loss surface several weeks or months after the tragedy occurred. This is called post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Recognizing these symptoms in yourself or others is the first step toward recovery and finding appropriate help and treatment. Most of which I have dealt with and am have become free from them; the * will show the ones that I have.
The following information is another excerpt taken from a paper published by Point Man International, called REVEILLE. Here are ten chief characteristics that may help you identify PTSD in yourself and others:
*(1) Re-experiencing traumatic events through vivid memories or flash backs.
(2)Feeling “emotionally numb.
(3) Feeling overwhelmed by what would normally be considered everyday situations and feeling diminished interest in performing normal tasks or pursuing your usual interests.
*(4) Crying uncontrollably. This was one of my most common fears for a long time.
(5) Isolating oneself from family and friends and avoiding social situations.
*(6) Relying increasingly on alcohol or drugs to get through the day.
*(7) Feeling extremely moody, irritable, angry, suspicious or frightened.
*(8) Having difficulty falling or staying asleep, sleeping too much and experiencing nightmares.
*(9) Feeling guilty about surviving the event or being unable to solve the problem, and harbouring guilt over not being able to change the event or prevent the disaster. Having made it through the night time battle I often asked myself, “Why did I survive?” Feeling fears and a sense of doom about the future.
(10) Feeling fears and a sense of doom about the future.
LZ White from “Live Now! Continue the Fight!”
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When my group arrived here, the bunker on the front right side of the entrance gate was given to us to settle in and defend. I always wondered where I was since I had no knowledge about my actual locations and found a program called “Goggle Earth”. I then discovered after searching for this particular LZ, in 2010, it is not found on Goggle Earth, however others are, most of which I was not on. If you are interested in seeing them or the general area, type in U.S. Facilities – 063 in the search box area. On that program you can find Tay Ninh, which was the biggest city that we usually were around, as well, the Black Virgin Mountain.
Investigating further, you can see Quang Loi, where I went for medical treatment the second time I was injured and Cam Rahn Bay where I received treatment before leaving for Japan, that are both off the South China Sea. You can as well, locate LZ Becky that is located further North, that I had passed by one time while on patrol. As well, Long Bien, which is further up north, where the headquarters for the 1st Cavalry could be located.
The night before we were set to be going out to another area, I had been sitting outside on the left side of the bunker, gazing out towards the tree line, while one of the guys was shelling the area with his rocket grenade gun, just fooling around. This weapon had a six-inch round barrel, that shot rounds that fell and exploded; it really seemed difficult to aim as it depended on what angel you held it. He had no idea that it was disturbing a battalion of Vietcong setting up I believe, though I am not really sure now, that they were going to attempt to take over our landing zone after this happened.
Really, it had been just another night in Vietnam. There were no streetlights or city sounds, just a still, warm air with a clear sky above. I could have really enjoyed it except for the ever-present threat of the Vietcong on the offensive, of which I was very soon to encounter again, this being the second time. Laying on the left outside of the bunker I noticed more intently right in front of me, about three hundred to four hundred yards, something approaching my bunker, seemingly at a slow speed. To me, it appeared to look like a torpedo. At least, that is the best description I could give this object, as it hugged close to the ground, and was slowly striving to reach its final destination. At first, I thought I was imagining things; I rubbed my eyes and shook my head. Then I realized it was still slowly, but surely, approaching a direct hit on the bunker. I got up from my outside position and ran to the other side of the bunker, to get one of the other guys there inside the bunker. I told him what I saw and he followed me in.
After I got inside the bunker I explained to the other men inside, who had been there before all this happened, what I saw. Then that R.P.G., I saw, hit our bunker soon after I entered it. I wondered later, how I saw something at night almost like I was looking into a night star (a device used to see at that night. Later following this long night of fighting, where I had continuously been shooting my M-16 to the point where the barrel got red in colour, I wondered if it would begin to become warped and ineffective, due to the extreme heat of the bullets passing through the barrel. I remember seeing the approaching troops, as I fired towards this group oncoming at me and it seemed that I had not hit one of them. This was I believe now, that as one was hit, another was right behind them making it appear I was not aiming my weapon correctly. During the battle, I saw one soldier get severely wounded if not dead after getting hit by an R.P.G., and I was afraid we would not make it through that night. The helicopters overhead were shooting rounds into the area in front of ours bunkers, some of the rounds were tracer type bullets, -these bullets allowed us to see them travel to their destination in the night-, and this gave me some hope I would see the next day; I just thought thru the night, that if I kept fighting we could somehow make it.
We got up in the morning to assess the damage. And found that night about three to four hundred Vietcong were found dead, from between our bunker to the tree line, maybe a couple hundred feet in distance. I remember that night, seeing the approaching troops as I fired towards this group oncoming at me and it seemed that I had not hit one of them. This was as I believe now, that as one was hit, another was right behind them making it appear I was not aiming my weapon correctly. I was very tired and yet the rush of adrenalin in my body was keeping me going at that time. It is reported that very often people can do some surprising efforts as when this happens. And that it can cause some negative affects latter as the amount of that natural response of our body to respond is heightened. Most times later, as with me, one can have feeling of being very tired, sick, or just plain overspent. After having made it through the night, I got up and went out to help get the wounded into helicopters.
Genesis 1:3 And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light.  God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness.  God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night." And there was evening, and there was morning were the first day.
May it be this truth that that sets you free, that a new first day may come. That His light will separate any darkness in your life that surrounds you. There may be an evening, but there will be a new first day that follows that.
For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness.
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path
As this new first day begins and you now have His light as a lamp burning and God’s Word, scripture to guide you, any darkness will be separated and light will proceed before you.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
Fear can not stand against faith, the light and salvation has become your stronghold, that which now becomes your strength.
The entrance of thy words giveth light; it giveth understanding unto the simple.
Reading scripture, God’s Word, not only will give light, it will help you understand circumstances and situations that you did not know how to overcome before.
1Peter 2:9 10
9 But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light;
10 Which in time past were not a people, but are now the people of God: which had not obtained mercy, but now have obtained mercy.
We are no longer of an earthly heritage or descent, God is our Father and we are His son’s and daughter’s. We could not give mercy, because we had not yet received that until we became of His heritage and descent.
Colossians 1:12 — 14
12 Giving thanks unto the Father, which hath made us meet to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light:
13 Who hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated us into the kingdom of his dear Son:
14 In whom we have redemption through his blood, even the forgiveness of sins
Our inheritance is not one of only earthly rewards; we should consistently show our gratitude in that we have been qualified to receive an inheritance. Having been set free from the darkness and its domain, receiving our salvation, the forgiveness of sin, by Jesus Christ’s death on the cross and resurrection for each one of us.
5 This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.
6 If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth:
7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
We can not walk in darkness and believe we live in truth. As we continue to meet, worship and fellowship together, the blood Jesus shed for each one of us at Calvary cleanses us. Even when we go through difficult situations and circumstances, we need not fear because God is always with us, no matter where we are.
By Minister Gary Tate
As I look at characteristics such as integrity, passion and pursuit; these qualities are to me the upmost of importance as I strive to become all God has for me.
This requires that I am honest, -or have honor-, that a thesaurus defines this word honest as: being decent, fair and having honor, -character and moral-, as well be authentic, reliable, sincere while being direct and frank, yet truthful in all situations. In fact in Webster’s dictionary it gives the meaning as follows; (L. integritas, wholeness, soundness, from integer, untouched, whole entire:
1 the quality or state of being complete, wholeness, entireness unbroken state.
2 the entire, unimpaired state or quality of anything; perfect condition, soundness
3 the quality or state of being of sound moral principle uprightness ,honesty, and sincerity.
When looking at the Strong’s Concordance it gives for us the following Hebrew word which is translated integrity; tome: 8537: completeness, full, integrity, perfect, simplicity, uprightness.
There is no direct Greek word in the Bible translated integrity, however based upon the meaning of the word that I have discovered so far, we can safely use the following analog teleios 5046: a word usually translated perfect which means : complete,(in various applications of labor, growth, mental and moral character, of full age, man, perfect. So now it becomes clear that to have integrity is to be complete and whole, in other words to be completely intact, which by implication would involve all aspects of the triune nature of man namely, spirit, soul and body.
It is what drives you, what you love and called to, -what we want to do we probably will do-, I must desire (want) to, while aspiring to aim for my goals, -and not just wishing-, while making the right somewhat tough choices, along with an enthusiasm and excitement that will help me enjoy and finish this journey and quest. Your purpose and plan, God gives us the desire of our heart that is our passion. Then we are following that already set plan of God. We must choose to do that, -choose ye this day-, maybe we choose what we want that is not in Gods will.
This is as I search, -while exploring and investigating-, with careful examination and study of my objectives and motives that will be required for me to become effective and productive. To find Gods will we must search within His written word. Word search for scripture that will help you in recognizing what scripture says in that area. Sometime we try to make our choices easier, too many choices can confuse us at times. The Bible tells us to pray (Eph 6:14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;