There are days and nights when it behooves us to turn off our devices, remove all noises, all forms of technology from our lives, and actually FEEL our existence. This piece was written during one of those moments when I was actually FEELING my Life. lmr .
I have sometimes been accused of being a ‘deep thinker', and thus, this exercise is probably just an extension of my own curious nature… But I wonder about things, about people and this deeply finite life we’re all living.
I wonder about those who are so obviously living it too fast, too frivolously or too foul, as if they’ve already made up their minds that this, the NOW of THIS existence is all there is to life, to living and there is and will be NO afterlife, no place of consequence or judgment for the way they’ve conducted themselves while here. I think of all the hurt, the madness, the destruction and broken hearts left in their wake, and I almost feel sorry for them-- those soul offenders and those spirit-breakers. I’ve the strangest feeling, that, like Stevie Wonder sang all those years ago, and then again at Michael Jackson’s funeral:
“They Won’t Go Where I Go.”
Mental exercise here: Think back to a song you learned in school, or first heard as a kid. Listen to it, and then... sing it, right now, inside your mind. When you HEAR it, is it still in that kid’s voice... that high-pitched, gender-free noise of your youth? I wonder what’s up with that?
Maybe it’s the sound of our own lives being reviewed, being refreshed, being rehashed, being reflected upon. And that always MEANS something.
These days I’m feeling kinda Blessed because I realize I didn’t have to still be here, still writing, still fighting, still loving in this mad way I tend to love. It’s all a Gift.
Life is a GIFT, people.... a wonderful, unpredictable, multitudinous gift! Please don’t be in such a hurry to trade yours in for something better. Don’t waste your time whining and bitching about it when it doesn’t quite fit you the way you think it should.
*A tear falls to my lap.*
Damn it! What a wimp! I did not even see or feel that one coming.
But much like life, I’m sure it must mean something.