The bitterness code is negativity ingrained in my DNA. I’m still trying to shake the bitter feelings from the past, and keep them from affecting the present.
I wrote a new article yesterday, but didn’t publish it. I felt like I needed to review it another day before sending it out into the wold.
After reviewing this morning, I’m really glad I waited to publish.
That sucker was loaded with bitterness.
Now that I think about it, yesterday wasn’t a good day for me. Writing always seems to make things better, so I wrote for quite a while. But I realize now that before I even started to write I was locked and loaded with bitterness.
Bitterness is ingrained in my code.
My cells have memories within them. And I can recollect the force and nature of these memories like they happened yesterday.
Certain scenarios trigger the bitterness. I link emotions from old traumas to new ones.
For example, with manipulation scenarios I instantly go into warrior mode.
If someone throws a fact in the wash, spinning and twisting it, then pulls it out and tries to say, “this is what it looked like all along!” Yikes.
I don’t do well with manipulation; I reject it on a cellular level.
The strength of my cellular recollection depends on the types of thoughts I choose to ruminate on.
If I attend to the negative thoughts that come at me, and build on them, they get worse.
Some days it feels like bitterness is in my genes. And you can’t change your genetic makeup.
I guess the truth is I am still angry about a lot of things. And the emotions I have over the past are re-birthed when I sense a hint of similarity in new situations that come up.
How do you rebuild your code when it’s riddled with bitterness?
Here’s a few things I know for sure:
Sleep is important.
If you don’t get enough of it, the dormant, detrimental qualities within you take over.
Your soul needs inspiration in order to thrive.
Reading a book that motivates, watching a show that inspires you to do something positive, or talking to someone with a desire to do good things for other people: all activities that counteract bitterness.
Food is fuel.
If you don’t supply your body with foods that support its function, it won’t perform optimally. Here’s how to tell: eat only healthy foods for a few days. (Check out this great website with free recipes) Then eat processed foods and take note of how your body and mind respond.
Alcohol blocks your spirits ability to live honestly and wholly.
Alcohol takes you further away from your authentic self. I still feel the pull every now and then during stressful times, and if I choose to drink, I reliably end up feeling terrible. My spirit takes a beating, as do my brain cells. It’s not worth it.
Whenever I let bitterness take me for a ride, I recall these 4 facts. I’m reminded that I am the driver of my own vehicle and I have choices.
If I choose to do, say, think, eat, and surround myself with positivity, I am a much happier human being. And I set a better example for the people I come into contact with.
And I have to believe that if I stay on this path, I’ll be able to reprogram the bitterness code.
I’m hopeful that one day, my cells will release the negativity, and the memories will be of all the good that has come out of all the bad.