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I have always wanted to make a blog, but the one thing that stopped me was the idea that nobody would read it. It would be meaningless to put words out onto a platform like this if nobody read them, right? Wrong. Completely and utterly wrong. My fing...

I have always wanted to make a blog, but the one thing that stopped me was the idea that nobody would read it. It would be meaningless to put words out onto a platform like this if nobody read them, right? Wrong. Completely and utterly wrong. My fingers are now slamming on this keyboard of mine so purposefully because I have come to the realization that my thoughts hold so much value even when nobody is listening to them. I am going to speak with pride and strength from this point forward and I urge everybody to do the same. 
I am hoping that this blog can turn into something that can help people. However, before it can do that, it needs to help me a little first. See, I was suffering from depression for quite some time and recently I have actually been battling with it, and I believe I am on the winning side now. How lame is it to be a depressed teen? So cliche. Yet, here I am, just craving gut wrenching laughs and a bright side of things. I know people have it worse and some have it better. For now, I don't really want to talk about why I fell into the small pit of Hell that is depression, instead I will sum it up by saying that life and emotions happen and I have learned that they are not always in the manner that we originally desired and that can make living seem difficult to manage. I am hoping that if somebody does read this, they know that I understand the gravity of other large issues in the world versus mine. 
In regards to depression and other trials of my life, I always thought "why is God putting me through this" and I finally got my answer from my favorite speaker, Jefferson Bethke. He basically said that God gives us these trials and tribulations to make us more in His image. I know that everyday is hard for me right now, but this struggle will help me to be a more Christ-like individual. From going through this time in my life, I will be able to relate to damaged people now, I will have rid my life of toxic people, and I will get to see the world with a new mind that will allow me to greet others with a holy kiss. All of which gives me reason to keep pushing. 
Everybody is going through something rough in their lives whether it be big or small. I hope that these people can cling on to the fact that the struggle will shape them into a better human if they remain strong through it (easier said than done, trust me I know). But also cling to the fact that I’m praying for them and believe in them. 
As for right now, I simply sit here, exhilarated with power that my words have, even when nobody is listening. We were all made of the same stuff that the great explorers, athletes, writers, activists, and so on and so forth were; we have the same chance to change the game, be magnificent and as inspiring as they are. Every day is a new chance to begin again, overcome a fear or obstacle and achieve a goal. Let’s all do just that.
xoxo
Justine

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