In the middle of an abusive relationship my poetry was my refuge, my protection my path to hope
The darkness in my heart
Divides me from the true light inside.
There is safety and solace in the dark
I am too afraid to face the truth in the light.
Yet the longer I dwell in the shadows
The less capable I am of breaking free.
The shadows distort the passing of time
And I grow weaker, moment by moment…..
Courage fails me and despair fills me
Fear is no longer an enemy but my only friend.
Ignorance is my shelter from reality
Denial is the only food for thought I eat.
Yet with each passing second the light haunts me
It flickers incessantly catching my eye.
It is cold in the dark, my body yearns for warmth
It is silent in the dark, my voice longs to be heard.
I seem invisible to all around me
Afraid to speak for fear no one will hear
Afraid to step into the light should no one notice
Yet the light still beckons & is irresistible.
I grow stronger as I turn to the light
Warmth restores my faith in myself and others.
Fear is replaced by hope
Denial is no longer enough to satisfy my hunger.
Out of the darkness my own light radiates
illuminating my soul
and setting me free