the effects of bullying
You never gave me a chance, not a fucking jot
My entire childhood, most of my teenage years
Spent under a cloud of intimidation and ridicule
Day after day, hour after hour, even down to the minutes
Making my life an absolute misery
Telling the world lies about me
Lies that they believed
Causing them to laugh at me
Causing them to point at me
Causing them to abhor me
If you had stopped to think ... just for a moment
The consequences of your actions
The unremitting pain
But you were far too busy having fun
You despicable soul
Heart colder than a corpse's viscera
And for what?
Because I looked different?
Because I was a trifle weird?
Because I wore cheap clothes?
Because my family was poor?
Because I had no friends?
Or was it because of my refusal to fight back?
My timorous nature
My meek, pathetic demeanour
Did my tears bring you joy?
As I sat cowering in a corner
A large crowd baying for more
With you the star of the show
And little ol' me the derisory freak
Oh well ...
I guess these things happen
Time has passed
The years have flown by
We've all moved on
I've watched you from afar
From the shadows
Your life is a success
Three charming children
A cute little dog
The perfect life
The same can't be said for your chosen victim
I never recovered from your impious games
The scars of my past
Forever imprinted on my mind
How it changed me
Creating a terrible sickness within
Thrown into an awful place
A place where people scream and laugh
A place where people hear disembodied voices
A place where the walls are padded
A place of madness
All because of you
Now that I'm free, considered cured
I'm meant to get on with my life
And become a worthy citizen
But I'm far from healed
I played it exceedingly well
An act worthy of an Oscar
How I've longed for this moment
The scent of freedom
The taste of retribution
For I am no longer timid
For I am no longer weak
And tonight ...
My old friend
I will come knocking at your door
And I will show you how it feels
To be subjected to meaningless brutality
Before I kill you