I miss the way we never got to hold hands.
I miss not getting to love your special people
and you not knowing mine.
I miss that we never got to share a meal
Or cook for each other.
I miss making you smile
I miss your insights.
I miss knowing you would understand.
I miss breaking through your defences
as easy as breathing.
I miss your rage and your tantrums.
I miss that our children don't know each other.
I miss alpha.
I miss you loving my best friend through me.
I miss the laughs we never shared.
I miss our music
and our love of food.
I miss your stupid face.
I miss hearing you loving your people.
I miss your jealousy and your understanding.
I miss the reciprocity.
I even miss the ups and downs.