A meditation on meditation that disrupted my meditation.
I sense it, something is changing.
Before, moments were best anticipated, surreal in experience, wispy on recollection.
Separation, appraisal, observer status.
This moment, this is different.
It feels new, here in the present.
Time shifting was tiresome; in the future, worried, powerless.
So long to arrive here, now.
Was I ill or merely normal?
Is normal healthy?
Finding through acceptance.
Something peaceful, genuine.
Be still, be here now.
Is it true?
All exists in this moment, now, acceptable if only I will?
Can I abide in peace, a part not apart, free of valuation?
I chased it off.
7 Sept., 2016