I remember how you would always ask me, “Why do you spend such a long time with your ear pressed against my chest baby?” I didn’t have a real answer then, as to why I always spent so much time, doing that &...
I remember how you would always ask me,
“Why do you spend such a long time with your ear pressed against my chest baby?”
I didn’t have a real answer then, as to why I always spent so much time, doing that and I would just shrug, you would laugh, tell me you loved me and I would lay back down on your chest.
You see, my darling. I would do anything to hear you ask me that question now, I have a million answers for you, in regards to it.
If I could lay on your chest now, and you would ask me, why I spend such a long time, with my ear, pressed against your chest, I would tell you,
“I press my ear against your chest to listen to your heartbeat, it helps me realise how lucky I am, that I am able to listen to you living. I press my ear against your chest so I can tap my fingers to the rhythm of your heartbeat, you see, it will always be my favourite song.”
I’d tell you,
“I fall in love with you, that little bit more, every time I was lay there on your chest, listening to the rhythm of your heart.”
Then finally, I would add,
Your heartbeat, helped me realise how alive I really am, your heartbeat made me feel alive. I was so numb then, I am still incredibly numb now, and most days I do not feel alive. I have this emptiness inside my soul that I can’t seem to quite explain to you, to anyone, especially since you left. But for a split second, your heartbeat makes me feel alive and I owe you forever for that.”